Enamored with Monotony

Enamored with Monotony

For the time being, I am enamored with monotony. I am currently in the middle of a two week break between my old job and my new job. All of last week was cluttered with friends crashing at the crib and me finishing up my last few days at my old job. I’ve taken the time the last few days to catch up on some movies that I’ve been meaning to watch for a while. I finally saw Juno – and LOVED it. The dialogue was witty and the characters so refreshingly unique.  I really don’t want to label it as a “quirky” movie because everyone else has, but it really is that.  Ellen Page annihilated her role as Juno in the movie. I didn’t think that this movie would live up to the hype, but it did – and exceeded my expectations…Anyways, it was a GREAT movie – I would recommend everyone to watch it. I think it’s coming out on DVD this coming Tuesday (April 15th), so either rent it or bootleg it – your choice. But definitely watch it.

“He is the cheese to my macaroni.” What a great line from the movie.

On a different note, I am quasi preparing to start my new job. I was so busy last week entertaining folks that I didn’t have much time to actually digest my professional reality: transitioning from my 1st real job to my 2nd. I was hoping to be as low key and laid back as possible this week so I could enjoy this time off and get my mind right for my new job. I’m not really sure what to expect – but I don’t want to think too much about it. I’m sure as the weekend approaches, I’ll start getting a tad bit more nervous about the transition.

A close friend of mine is going through a tough breakup – and I am trying my best to be optimistic about the situation. He is overwhelmed right now by an abundance of emotions and a dearth of rationality. He broke up with his ex when he learned of several untruths and lies. Untruths and lies that irrefutably justify his decision to end his 2 year relationship with his ex. Yet, like all those who have suffered heartbreak and/or intense emotional pain, he is having a difficult time enduring. This girl he is with – she is by no means the type of girl that someone would want their friend to be with. She is manipulative, immature, and deceitful – and he is wrestling with feelings to get back with her. I know that I am not in that position – but logically, it seems like such an easy decision. Regardless of what emotions he feels for her, he has to think logically about the situation and realize that she cannot and will not be his wife and that he deserves better – much better. I am afraid that he will learn this mind-numbingly painful lesson on his own. No matter what I tell him, I fear that he will do what he wants to do at the end of the day. And right now, I think that he wants to return to a life of emotional turbulence, mistrust, and deceit. I know it is easy for me to say all of this not being in that situation, but I did suffer a rough breakup myself a few years back, so I kind of sort of know some of what he is going through. He has got to trust himself and the decision he made – because he made the right one. I know it is tremendously easy saying this from the outside looking in, but this seems like a no-brainer to me: forget her and move on. I hope he is strong enough to stick with it and resilient enough to know that only time will heal the emotional pain he is suffering from right now. He has to let it burn.

This whole breakup has opened my eyes up a lot to the opinions and beliefs of my friends and cousins. They are way more conservative than I am. So many of them want the typical virgin girl who doesn’t drink nor party. I don’t want any of that. I don’t even think I care that much about any of that stuff. I think that maybe in the past, I might have been more inclined to lean conservative than liberal, but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve just become simpler and more indifferent. I just want to be in a relationship that works. Nothing fancy or anything – just someone who is easy to get along with and who values me and the people in my world. Plus, I think that people who have a conservative outlook on life and women tend to be somewhat naive. They see the world as they want to see it – not the way it actually is. I think a lot of guys seek out virgin females because of insecurities and trust issues they may have. I think some guys just aren’t confident or secure enough to date a liberal, independent woman. I don’t know about this, but the more and more I talk to my friends, the more I feel like this is true. I don’t necessarily know if that is the right or wrong way to look at it, but I just know that I look at it differently. I ain’t perfect and I ain’t looking for someone that is. I just want someone that fits. Like the imperfect missing piece to my imperfect puzzle. But, like I told my friend who is going through the rough breakup – “love just shouldn’t be that hard…it just shouldn’t be…”…Call me naive or whatever, but it just shouldn’t be….

I haven’t blogged in an Atlanta minute – and hopefully that won’t become a trend.

But for now, I am enamored with monotony and not ready to return to the real world…soon I will be, but not yet….not yet…

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