Apathetic

Apathetic

I don’t know exactly what it is, but I’ve been feeling very apathetic and unmotivated at work recently. I just feel out of it – I can’t seem to focus the way I need to. I think that a lot of this has to do with the back and forth between Chester and Atlanta – the minute I get used to things over there, I have to come back here and re-adjust and vice versa. Plus, when I’m out there, I basically have to just sit there and predominantly do nothing. So, maybe that has forced my hand in this issue. Maybe I’ve become so accustomed to doing nothing that it is hard for me to get back into the flow of things. I think it’s kind of like when you are out of school for an extended period of time. When you are out and decide to go back to school, it is so hard for you to get back in the mode of being a student. I feel like I haven’t done anything productive since Thanksgiving – my brain is rusty. I feel like I’m doing mindless work sometimes – and I don’t like that. So, I’m going to have to refocus and rededicate myself and get the ball rolling again. I can’t stay this apathetic and disinterested – it’s not fair to me and especially not to my employer. I am having a significant bitch of a time waking up in the mornings recently – maybe that has something to do with the lingering apathy, I don’t know. I guess the fact that I can literally come into work whenever I please so long as I work 8 hours doesn’t help either. It’s gonna be a difficult adjustment when I move on to my next job – I’m probably going to have to be there 8am sharp everyday – I am NOT looking forward to that.

So, hopefully today I can get back on track and get something substantially productive accomplished. But the minute I get back into the flow of work back in the office in the A – I’m going to have to return to Chester and re-adjust to the quality of work there. This whole back and forth thing definitely has its drawbacks and side effects.

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