Finally, I have purchased a car (99 Honda Accord EX-L). Finally. I have been fighting an uphill battle for so long, that I didn’t ever know if I would ever see the top of it. Truth be told, I have yet to reach the top; actually, I am far from it, but I have at least reached a point on my journey where I can see the top, if only from a distance. The struggle has, at times, been long and arduous. For most, buying their own car isn’t that big of a deal, but for me, it is. I have struggled much since I was sixteen; paying for nearly all of my own expenses in life. I thought that the day when I would have my own car would never come, as silly and naive as that sounds. But when you are on the bottom, it is so damn difficult to see the top. It’s as if the top is an unimaginable place only told in stories and fairy tales. Even the middle seems outlandish, unreal, and unfathomable. Finally, I feel that I have some sort of vindication, some sort of relief or reward for the financial struggles I’ve seen for so long. It feels good to reach a goal you have set for yourself so long. This is a big deal to me, it is the first of many stepping stones I must take in order for me to achieve the many goals I have set for myself in life. Independence is a quality or a trait that has been forced upon me by my circumstances and my pride. It’s not like I chose to be independent years ago, I was forced to either cowher and beg for assistance or to become an independent man. Needless to say, my ego and pride wouldn’t allow me to choose anything but the latter. God, it just feels good to know that my hard working has finally paid off. A day like today reminds me of the trials and many financial tribulations I have faced over the years and it shows me have far I’ve come in such little time. I expect great things out of myself, but I am still amazed and perplexed when I achieve the things I have set out for myself. I become reminiscent of everything I have had to go through to get to where I am. I remind myself that even though things are better now, they’ve been much worse before. It is these reminiscent thoughts that humble me and help me realize the importance of where I am at now and where I need to go.
Now, onto my next project: moving out. Don’t know yet whether that means an apartment, a house, a town home, or a condo – but that research will begin in a few days. For now, I’m just gonna enjoy the moment, put on my shades, and bask in the light of my latest purchase.