Bored

Bored

Work has been slowing down the closer and closer we get to New Year’s and life has slowed down considerably over the past year. Am I unhappy?? Can’t say that I am. Am I broke, void of financial security? Nah, that ain’t it either. What is this odd feeling that I am feeling?? Like something is missing, like things just aren’t right. I think it is just that I’m bored – at work and in life. The daily grind has become so mundane and routine, there isn’t any excitement to it. I am bored. I don’t know if a change of location could refresh me, recharge my batteries of exhuberance – but I don’t think that’s it. I am just bored. I do the same things and am around the same people all the time. Don’t get me wrong, I love the people in my life and the world in which I live in, but it can get to be redundant sometimes. I need some sort of change of pace, something new and exciting, something that will add some excitement and/or intrigue into my daily life. I have recently taken up cooking and am trying to learn the electric guitar, but for whatever reason, I don’t think that is what I need. Is it because I haven’t really been out of the state for 3 months??? Do I just need to take a trip?? I need to throw something else on my eternal plate of life. Maybe some lessons in something, maybe more advanced salsa lessons?? Maybe pick drawing back up again?? Maybe try to meet some new people, maybe start dating again?? I don’t know, I just feel bored, in need of some change or excitement in my life. I can’t stay still for too long without getting complacent and mortified with fear of boredom. I just can’t put my finger on what it is that I am missing and/or needing. I know that I just don’t feel 100% right, something is off – and I feel it and find it harder and harder to repress with each passing day. Maybe this whole living at home thing is holding me down, keeping me from liberating myself from the shackles of boredom. I don’t know. I have to find some happy medium between my responsibilities, situation, and aspirations. I need to be refreshed, rejuvenated, because I am not who I was. I loved who I was – someone who woke up every day with an optimistic view on life and someone who found joy in every ounce of life I could absorb. I always found ways to avoid being bored and was much more satisfied with where I was. I didn’t want too much more than the moment I was in. There is something to that, and I know that, and that is why I am trying to rediscover that, or at least draw some sort of inspiration or motivation from that. Stay tuned…

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